do it anyway

first off~ pardon my french! if you're sensitive to f-bombs, skip this post :)

you know, i am not one to give a shit what other people think about me. i'm NOT. i've got to say, i am feeling completely overwhelmed & under-inspired lately. i feel STUCK. i feel in LIMBO. i feel like i'm sleep-walking. i feel powerLESS. i find myself asking ~ what's the fucking point?erica, what is the point in doing the laundry, when, by the time i am finished folding the clothes & putting them away ~ i turn around to find a whole freaking wack-load of dirty clothes all over the laundry room floor, the bathroom floor, the kids bedroom, the hallway, under the couch, behind the toilet (my kids are VERRRY imaginative in their hiding places :)erica, what is the point in spending all this time & energy in cleaning the kitchen? doing the dishes? putting the papers way? ~ when, after the kids have come home from school & by dinner time, the kitchen is a freaking disaster zone & there is NO CLEAN SPACE ANYWHERE in sight???what's the point?what's the point in TRYING to make money, to pay my bills & take care of my family, when I come home to find a SHUT-OFF NOTICE for my water? That is COMPLETELY out of my control? a bill that is someone else's responsibility, but since he chooses to flake on that responsibility, I now have 10 minutes to run down & pay $250.00 to have my water turned back on, so that my kids & I can bathe & shower & flush the freaking toilet before the next school day?what is the point?erica, what is the point in being honest & caring & hopeful & open-hearted??? when, EVERY freaking time, he uses my GOODESS as my weak spot (and kicks me in my bad knee just like that ass-hole did to Daniel, in Karate Kid!!) why? why can't they PLAY FAIR??? with grace & dignity? what's the freaking point???so~ here i am ~ with dishes, and laundry, and mess, and stacks of bills, and an injured heart ~ asking myself WHAT'S THE FUCKING POINT???

and, THEN, i happened upon the quote below, which made me SMILE...and reminded me how very important it is NOT to let the bastards in the world change who I AM!

I am who I am~ and that makes me, ME!

I can't let the negativity & lies & deceit of OTHERS change who I am!

I can't let THEIR shitty attitude & poor choices make me cynical and hardened!!!

NO FUCKING WAY!

Cause, that would be like me handing my power over & saying, "Here you go~ you suck, you big fat liar, you suck, but I'm just going to give up & allow you to CHANGE me~ I give up. you WIN."

no sir! NO FUCKING WAY!!!

I will not give my power away~

NEVER again!

I will not allow another person to chip away at my soul

& take away beautiful pieces of me~

little by little~

until I can hardly recognize the girl in the mirror!

NOPE!

I am going to STAND UP & STOMP MY FEET

& WAVE MY ARMS & say FUCK YOU!!!

you are NOT good for me

I DESERVE better!

and

I will NOT SETTLE for less

:)

good idea, eh?

"People are unreasonable, illogical and self-centered.

Love them anyway.

If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish ulterior motives

Do good anyway.

If you are successful, you will win false friends and true enemies.

Succeed anyway.

The kindness you show today will be forgotten tomorrow.

Be kind anyway.

Honesty and Frankness will make you vulnerable

Be honest and frank anyway.

The biggest person with the biggest ideas can be shot down by The smallest person with the smallest mind

.Think big anyway.

What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight

Build anyway.

People really need help, but may attack you if you help them.

Help them anyway.

Give the world the best you’ve got and You might get kicked in the teeth.

Give the world the best you’ve got anyway!!!"

-Author unknown

it's time to trade in the coffee & smokes...

for smoothies, vitamins, art, & exercise!!!


so, here's to NEW BEGINNINGS!

today, I start my transformation challenge!

time to trade in OLD THOUGHT PATTERNS & beliefs

for TRUTH & LOVE & PEACE.

kisses

xoxoxo

e.